Date:	2005-06-08 14:29
Subject:	Wow...
Security:	Public
Mood:	relaxed
Music:	Cyndi Lauper - At Last

Well its been almost 5 months now... i think it time to update a little bit. Things have been pretty good. My boyfriend is still the best.

I graduated with high honors about 3 weeks ago now. I'm so glad it's finally all over. I loved all my friends in high school, and some of my teachers... but I hated high school. I felt like I didn't belong. I need to be away at college, on my own, living in my own apartment. Correction: Living with my best friend in OUR apartment.

I was pretty overwhelmed with all the school work I had to finish for DePaul. Tests, papers, etc. So overwhelmed that I almost wanted to give up and go to fashion school. But thats not me. I'm not one to give up that easily. So I finished some tests before I came to AZ, finished my paper on the plane here, and finished up my tests when I got here. SUCH a RELIEF!

Still looking for the perfect place to live. We found one apartment that we were absolutely in love with, and wanted more than anything, but we were ready to move in... if it was available July 1st we would have taken it. But Cole still needs to get out of his lease, and I still need to get financially ready. My shopping habits have caught up with me, but I think I'll be able to save up enough to be set.

I've been in Scottsdale, AZ for 6 days now. I'll be going home in 4 days. I'm not really as tan as I would have hoped, but then again we've been out and about looking at million dollar homes and furniture shopping. I plan on sunning for the remainder of my stay.

Date:	2005-01-31 22:57
Subject:	SURPRISE!
Security:	Public
Mood:	shocked

So saturday night im minding my own business getting ready to go to my best friends for a bday party and my boyfriend calls me asking if i can do him a favor... "Can you meet my friend at my apartment at 7ish to pick up the title for my car cause shes moving to FL before ill be home" of course i say yes, why wouldnt i. so i get there at like 7:30 and shes not there yet but she will be in 5 mins so i double park outside his building. im there for like 5 mins and of course the cops come driving down the street... i see them in my mirror and i knew they were going to say something to me... "you're double parked, neighbors are complaining you have to move" wtf, im on a street with like 6 italian restaurants on one block EVERYONE is double parked waiting for valet and of course they have to pick on me... but who knocks on my passenger window... none other than my boyfriend... he knows everyone in the CPD and asked them to distract me and of course they have nothing better to do than to screw with me. i dont think ive ever been that surprised or caught off guard about anything my entire life...

now i can finally be happy... 4 days early

Date:	2005-01-20 21:13
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	lazy
Music:	David Gray - This Year's Love

Date:	2005-01-20 16:41
Subject:	bordem again equals quizes
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	Karma - Alicia Keys

still manage to amaze me... some so scary true i refuse to post O:-)

You scored as A MetroHomoSexual. Straight or really, really gay? Metro to the core, but it’s your outward appearance that’s most important. Narcissist? Hell no, you just want to look better and more expensive than everyone else. </td> A MetroHomoSexual 90% An AberHollisterAE Gay or Fratmo 50% A Closet Case 40% Normal, Boring and Gay 35% A Jock 25% What Kind of Gay Man Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Exciting. My, my, look at you! </td> Exciting 58% Violent 42% Lazy 33% Stubborn 33% Shy 17% What are you like in bed? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Les Miserables. You've had such a hard life, and yet you still have the strength to sing all about it! Remember, we are each part of the same human family, and that whatever our outward differences may be, our longings for individual liberty and peace are the same. </td> Les Miserables 67% Hairspray 63% Wicked 46% Grease 46% Cats 42% Avenue Q 42% What MUSICAL are you??? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Carrie Bradshaw. Your Carrie Bradshaw! You have an upbeat personality and a great love of life. You love your girlfriends, a nite out in New York City and a new pair of shoes. You have all you need in your life right now, and if a guy falls into place, then the more the merrier! </td> Carrie Bradshaw 80% Charlotte York 67% Samantha Jones 60% Miranda Hobbs 40% Which of the 4 Sex & the City Gals are YOU? created with QuizFarm.com

12 more days

Date:	2005-01-16 22:31
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Sex and the CIty

Date:	2005-01-04 23:22
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited

26 days... 25 days 23 hours...

Date:	2005-01-03 12:27
Subject:	i woke up...
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

And I'm crying all the time
I have to keep it covered up with a smile
And I'll keep on moving on for a while
Lord I have a broken heart

i knew this dream would end sometime...why....

Date:	2004-12-27 13:18
Subject:	flowing champagne
Security:	Public
Mood:	anxious
Music:	Trailer Trash - Modest Mouse

not much has been going on lately... sleeping til 12:30 and working...

time needs to go by a lot quicker....

FAB wedding 2 days!! i was going to get the works today for the big day.... hair, brows, facial, massage, but the spa is booked so im just getting my hair done. cannot wait for the wedding... signature room, top of the Handcock, and flowing champagne. AB FAB

(think i might switch to Xanga because it looks alot cooler, but shh)

Date:	2004-12-12 19:19
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	lonely

49 days til happiness

Date:	2004-11-21 22:46
Subject:	unbelievable
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	Fiori - If I & Spiritualized - Ladies and Gentlemen...

so much has happened in the past week i cant even begin to explain... but all i know is i am finally happy...

something that i thought wasnt going to be anything big, turned out to be one of the biggest things to ever happen to me... i met someone a week ago yesterday and i feel like ive known him forever already... hes absolutly amazing and the next 3 weeks until he comes back to me is going to be rough, but when he moves back in 3 weeks, everything will be perfect

"ive been told only fools rush in... but i don't belive... i could still fall in love with you"

parents found out about my speeding ticket... i tried so hard :( i was so close and if i paid it on time no one would have ever found out... buh, oh well shit was rough for a few days but they got over it and so did i

he made me smile, and thats all it took :)

Date:	2004-11-14 14:08
Subject:	i saved a horse
Security:	Public
Mood:	optimistic
Music:	Fiori - If I

what a night... what a weekend... but once again, i feel i always type something similar, why do i end up liking people i cant have... distance is the repeating issue again. liking someone who is going to be on the other end of the country most of the time... how is that going to work...? buh

on a lighter note, Express is the shit... the managers love me, we have so much fun... i need to keep a personal relationship with them as much as possible because i NEED to keep this job... deciding not to do guard i will be crushed if i get cut after holiday... cross ur fingers

i need NoDoz... im gonna pass out at work... < 4 hours of sleep and working til midnight tonight... whatever, it was worth it =)

Date:	2004-11-06 14:12
Subject:	EXPRESS
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	Lindsay Lohan - Rumors

so i got the job at express, hella awesome... my managers love me already!

guard starts in a week, i cant decide what to do... work at the most fabulous store, or do guard. the obvious choice would be work at Express, but i really don't want to let the girls down. i'm going to be really sad, but i think it'll be for the best because i could transfer this job to when i move to the city over the summer. and seeing this is what i want to go to school for, it would probably be wise to stay at Express... right? i need feedback... HELP!

Date:	2004-10-24 19:16
Subject:	i want a golden goose and i want it now
Security:	Public
Mood:	nervous
Music:	Frou Frou - Let Go

why can't the future be now... i just want to go

so trying to make it as easy as i can for my parents, i finally decide living at my uncles condo is the best idea ever. and now of course that i come to this conclusion... i reach the fact that its probably not going to happen. $400 for a beautiful appt was indeed to good to be true... his tenant now is being kicked out becaus he hasnt paid his rent in 3 months... which means he would have to hold the appt for me for the next 9 months... very unlikely... horrible news for me... i'm trying to talk my mom into paying the $400 a month starting now and ill have an appt starting next month and ill have all this extra time to take the time to slowly furnish my place, AND have my own place in the city to go to whenever i want... but im not sure mom wants to do that... so i need to get a job and reach an agreement...

i applied at express in the city today... i need that job... i need A job...

Date:	2004-09-29 12:02
Subject:	bored
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	freshmen choir girls singing

so for 2 straight hours everyday i do nothing in school... i sit here... and do nothing... i thought it woudl be great if i could update during this time... but its blocked along with EVERYTHING ELSE in the internet. but luckly mr. moan always leaves his computer signed on and i guess they dont block anything on the staff...

court's coming up fast and im still as broke as i was before... i really am starting to panic... no idea what im going to do. my uncle offered a few months ago that he would lend me the money but i feel bad because hes saving me from my parents finding out and i dont want to have to depend on him for everything... maybe ill ask one of my friends... selling myself probably wont go to well... i just cant wait until this goes away...

homecoming is this weekend... i guess it'll be fun... but there should be a limit for how big groups should be... a group of 44 is rediculous... i wanna party afterwards with out EVERYONE

well im gonna go see what kinda trouble i can get myself into...

today i had one of the best surprises ever... he probably doesn't realize how much it ment to me... but no one has ever dont anything like that for me... ever... really made me glow all day that i knew someone was thinking about me...

... just wish we could go out... sigh...

Date:	2004-09-16 23:00
Subject:	muah ha ha
Security:	Public
Mood:	mischievous

the garbage trick was definetly perfection... my mom came in here and asked what it was again and i was like advertisment for a scholarship to go to u of i, i threw it out... and shes like oh, ok...

wise... very wise...

Date:	2004-09-16 22:22
Subject:	"GONNA DO"
Security:	Public
Mood:	relieved
Music:	Modest Mouse - Trailer Trash

so i took on this major project in econ to make a movie about a certain topic. i chose the governments affliction with the media and the effects when they both lie. i am proud to say that 11 hours split between 2 nights later that it was really good. if anyone wants to see it just ask.

so the technology at stagg high school is ridiculous. i feel it actually makes me dumber. so first i finish my project at 12am tuesday night and i dont have a burner. so i was going to email it to my teacher, to big for an email. then i was going to save it on my H drive from home, but the server was down... but 1:30am Katie Lammel saved me. sent it to her via AIM and got the next day.

BUT 7th hour comes along and the server is down again throughout the school... i cant present... i was pissed...

but i went today and everyone loved my movie... i was even nice enough to add credits and put my group memebers name on it... even tho all they did was make a power point together and the one girl who just moved her from chicago used words like "GONNA" and GOVERMENT... and typed out "What DO the government have to do with the media." i was like you idiot...but my teacher pulled me aside after class and said it was amazing and he wanted a copy. so whatever, they just better not bring me down.and they did the ebonics slides

so ive been waiting a long time for my court date from my speeding ticket... since april 30th... so my parents just got home from bowling and my mom comes in here with an envelope and she likes what is this from urbana? i figured it was stuff from u of i, and shes like "court house?" and i was like ooh thats just advertisement for a scholarship for u of i.. and shes like oh ok and gave it to me... it was amazing i have a huge weight lifted off my shoulders its great.

im going to sleep that much better tonight...

Date:	2004-09-12 22:17
Subject:	slacker...
Security:	Public
Mood:	determined
Music:	Ron Perkov - Love Divine

so i dunno how many times i started an entry and then forgot about it... and then just closed it 2 hours later cause i didnt wanna finish it... but im determined this time...

nothin out of the ordinary has been happening lately... ive been working out like mad, then then i come home a do push-ups and sit-ups... i WILL have a hot body by the time i graduate.

school sucks as usual... well no, it doesnt suck, im just bored outta my mind with absolutly nothing to do all day except sit in the choir room and shop online. whatever, im studying fashion GD!

boys come and go... but definetly crushing madly on someone... probably straight, but doesnt hurt to flirt. he dresses WAY to nice to be straight. metro is one thing, but this is beyond that. and for someone being 2 years younger than me definetly means something. i never crush on anyone close to my age. i really should tho...

we will just end with that, hopefully itll get me in the habit again...

Date:	2004-08-15 11:48
Subject:	anger-managment?
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	Fiona Apple - Criminal

so my computer has offically gone to shit. i cant even open AIM anymore. mainly the reason i havnt updated in a while... i dont know how im going to deal with it for another year... guess ill have to perform favors to get it fixed... psh yeah right

so lets see... summer 2004... blew? yeah that word will suffice. possibly going to michigan this week with some friends before i start school thursday so that should be fun...

going to see Second City tonight

saturday night spent on the corner of fullerton in front of dominicks... now what do we do...

Date:	2004-07-26 00:53
Subject:	VERY important event @ NU
Security:	Public
Mood:	relaxed
Music:	Lisa Loeb - Stay

so how could i forget... breaking into the office at northwestern to get FOOOOD passes!! we are such hood-lums... i have to be lifted to the ledge so i can break into the screen window and go in the office to unlock the door. if that wasnt bad enough, we had all fake celeberty names on the passes... except mine was Michael Steifhlkajrauhl.... HA whatever...

... wait... i think i know why i forgot...